Fipohayo:

Fipohayo is a side-project where I make ambient/drone music with themes of desolation, death, and despair. This project in particular serves as more of an emotional outlet to express more of my darker and more depressive thoughts through music, as a way of getting it out of my system, as well as an avenue to create whatever I wanted without clogging up my other music ventures where I post my game soundtracks and such. You can view all of the music I make under this alias below, sorted by release date.

A Dreamless Death

Album Released: 2023

“A Dreamless Death” is an album about exhaustion and hopelessness, I aimed to encapsulate the feeling of dread and lack of positive outlook for the future, the sense of impending doom and the inability to control or stop it, and the contrasting force of trying to let go of what you can’t influence and being at peace with that. Sonically I wanted to make the music have a bit more melody and a sense of space compared to previous albums and songs I’ve made under this alias. These songs are in a sense, made to soothe feelings of dread and hopelessness, as much as they come from a place of those feelings permeating my psyche, and are an expression of those feelings.

You can listen to this album on Spotify, Apple Music, TIDAL, Qobuz, Youtube Music, Deezer and Bandcamp.

You can listen to one of the songs from this album, called “Seraphlegm” in the music player below:

If I Could Drown, If I Could Burn

Single Released: 2021

“If I Could Drown, If I Could Burn” is a single that I made and released in 2021, it originated by me combining two different songs that I had been working on for a while. I wasn’t getting anywhere with the songs originally, but when I had the idea to sample pieces of them and combine both of them into one song – it clicked for me. And to this day, this is one of my favorite songs I’ve made as Fipohayo. I think it does a good job at painting a longform story in audio form, it’s a good song to put on and close your eyes – letting your imagination flow where it may. At least, that’s how I like to listen to it.

You can listen to this song on Spotify, Apple Music, TIDAL, Qobuz, Youtube Music, Deezer and Bandcamp.

You can listen to this song in the music player below:

Caedis

Album Released: 2021

“Caedis” is the debut album that I made as ‘Fipohayo’. This project came from a pretty dark place for me. I often tussle with morbid visions and dreams when I’m in a more depressed state. It can be pretty consuming and vivid, to the point where it just ruins me. This is not a romanticism of that feeling. I wanted to score the place my head was in into a form of music, as a way of getting it out of my system. I often took comfort in music that occupied a similar headspace or sound whenever I go through those times in my life, so ultimately: I hope I can provide some form of escapism or relatability for anyone else who may also experience similar feelings and fears. Each song on Caedis flows into the next seamlessly in order to create a flowing, dynamic whole. While the songs can certainly be separated and distinctly recognized from each other, they are meant to all be a part of the same story and space. Many of them are thematically connected and come from similar times and inspirations within my own life.

You can listen to Caedis on Spotify, Apple Music, TIDAL, Youtube Music, Deezer and Bandcamp.

You can listen to the song “Lost and Bound” from this album in the music player below:

Beneath Underneath

EP Released: 2020

“Beneath Underneath” is my debut / teaser EP to help set the stage for the soundscape of Fipohayo as a project. The term “Fipohayo” comes from a word I made up as a child to juxtapose a childish innocence over the sounds of dark and desolate drone-scapes. This music is inspired both by horror as a media and the experience of fear, depression, and loathing. The track “Bottom of the Well” in particular is inspired by my own struggles with depression and self-hatred, it was something I sort of used as an analogy in therapy at the time – that most days felt like trying to crawl out of a dark well to reach daylight, but never making it out and falling down over and over. That’s what my mental space felt like for years and that song and this EP is inspired largely by that feeling.

You can listen to this EP on Spotify, Apple Music, TIDAL, Youtube Music, and Bandcamp.

You can listen to the song “Bottom of the Well” from this album in the music player below: